A higher call
I’m trying to find out the difference between a burden and a call. I just don’t want to make the wrong choice that’s all. God has a perfect will for every one of us and I believe God wants me to plant a church somewhere. God is truly and awesome God and when I see how holy amd righteous He is, I can’t help but cry because of my wicked human nature. I am nothing and on my own I’m destined for failure. God then made me realize that this world is in darkness and is headed toward a Christless eternity. I know God has called me. I answered the call in 2007. Satan really hit me hard after that because that was the year I was the most low in my life spiritually. I started coming back to God even though my pride and stubborness made the journey slower than I had expected. God then showed me His grace by letting me back in His side even though I fall here and there. October of 2008, I comitted my life to the Lord to be a pastor. I know it was a true calling because thatcwas the desire God put I’m my life when I was truly right with Him and I only loose that desire when I stray. Ptl for the God of the second, third, fourth, etc chance! This year, God put a place in my heart but like I said earlier, I’m not sure if it’s just a burden or a call. I know I can’t do anything my own and I don’t want to anything that is of the flesh in the name if “God and ministry.” but.. Is it wrong if I just say here am I send me? I see the need, God has given me a huge burden, I’m not in sin so is this a call? People say pray about it but how long must I wait? Or should I just pursue this “calling?” well.. I think I have made up my mind. I’m going for this with full force. No one will stop my drive but sin or the divine intervention from God. I’ll take this like Paul going to Asia. If God gives me His Macedonian call then I’ll go where He leads. Till then, I believe this us where God wants me. I’m going to pursue my calling. No mite time for mindless distractions from the world, no more regrets by lingering in sin, no more. I need to grow up and bs the man God wants me to bs in tbd future. Well I just painted a big target on my back and Satan wants to watch me fall. If you are my true friend, I need your support on this. Pray for me and be help me do right. I’m going to graduate with my pastoral major with a church planting minor, get my masters, work for my church for a couple of years for training, GET MARRIED (haha), and plant a church in.. San Diego.
